Psalm 56:8

“You keep track of all my sorrows.  You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”

God many times will speak to me in dreams.  Last night I had a very vivid dream.  In it I was crying… my heart was broken over the bitterness I apparently still held against several people in my life.  God, very gently, prompted me by bringing faces to my memory and showing me where I still held bitterness, anger, or resentment.  My tears were of true remorse, confession, and repentance.   One by one I forgave and asked forgiveness.

I came to a point where I had no more tears… I felt drained.  I turned around and saw the massive room I was in.  It was lined with shelves, like an apothecary.  There were rows and rows of shelves filled with jars of many sizes and shapes.  They were all clear and beautiful, filled with liquid.  As far as my eye could see, and as high as the heavens, these jars glowed, shelf upon shelf.

I asked God, “what are these?”

He softly replied, “the tears of my beloved ones… I treasure them.”  He continued, “they represent true repentance, devotion and grief.  Each one has visited here at one time or another and has received comfort.  Each one is precious.” He paused… and I saw a tear begin to travel down His cheek, “my child, tears are never wasted.  They cleanse, they heal, they renew… I save each one… I even write them down.”

As I began to awaken I felt a sense of complete peace… just knowing that God is aware of every tear, every sorrow… He weeps with me, shelters me, strengthens me in times of trouble.

Psalm 46:1

“God is our refuge and strength,
    an ever-present help in trouble.”

About John M. Stewart

I am a university administrator, part-time professor, writer, photographer, and a musician. I love live theater, music, hikes in the woods, and walks on the beach. I am a spiritual sojourner. My blog is about this life journey and how my faith impacts and intersects with my life journey. View all posts by John M. Stewart

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